Self-doubt can be an evil mistress, and yet for years, I’ve let her plague me. A lot of my good ideas have been lost because I couldn’t fight her off. Well, these last few weeks I’ve been working on self-care. I’ve been taking on more responsibility, of my own volition. I decided to finally start the blog I’ve been thinking about forever. (Hey, that’s this!) It’s even gotten some hits! (Thanks, guys!) However, the most important thing I did was actually put my Upwork account to good use.
For a while, I’ve been working on different ways to make money online. My eventual goal is to be able to support myself as a full-time traveler. I’ve been struggling with depression and PTSD for a while now, and they are both big friends with self-doubt. I have been afraid to try to get into freelance writing because I was worried that I wouldn’t make the cut. When I started applying for the cheapest entry-level jobs, I got zero responses. I began to worry that my samples were just not good enough.
One evening, while I was looking at Upwork, I realized I had half of my monthly allotted pitches left, and they reset in 45 minutes. I figured I had nothing to lose so I submitted cover-letters and resumes to all the jobs I wanted, but figured I’d never make the cut for. I didn’t even offer less to do it, I pitched myself as worth as much as they were looking for.
That was a game changer! I woke up to two job offers the next day. The best part was that they were things I wanted to do, not just things I can do. I will be writing a film treatment for a documentary film. While docs aren’t my strong suit, writing for film certainly is!
The other offer was by far my favorite. I have now been hired to write a guidebook for a reputable company, ” > Tourism, 50 Tips from a Local<” is a series of books written by local guides who have lived in an area for a certain amount of time. I will be writing the one for Ohio, and it will be published under my name! I will get an authors page on Amazon, a big plus for swinging my resume toward travel writing, as well as the opportunity to write for the company again in the future. AND I’M GETTING PAID!
I guess the lesson I learned, (and that I’m passing on to you???) is that you have to kick the self-doubt out of your head. I know its not easy, not even a little bit, but when you believe in yourself, others believe in you too. So put yourself out there. Ask for that promotion or shoot your shot with the cutie at the corner store.
Anyway, I’m getting paid to write a travel guide! WOOHOO!